you take me deeper than my feet could ever wander

#YOU TAKE ME DEEPER THAN MY FEET COULD EVER WANDER FREE#

“Spirit, lead me where my trust is without borders…” I wanted to trust without limits, but I had too much fear from the failures and disappointments. I had been very careful not to grow angry with Him, but I had inadvertently allowed walls to form around my trust in Him. Ultimately, I felt like God had let me down. I felt like absolutes I had always known to be true had become not-so-absolute. I felt my trust was in tact but could be easily fragmented with another blow of disappointment. I felt my faith had been met with defeat more often than it had been met with victory.

While none of them could shatter my love for God or my commitment to following Him, they had most definitely placed boundaries around my trust in Him. See, my trust in God had been very severely bordered.ĭisappointments, unanswered questions, and inexplicable challenges had been building up over the course of several years now. My heart and God’s Spirit met in those moments, and a reconciliation took place that I had been longing for for quite some time.

Before long, I broke down, not only in tears, but in full, unrestrained sobs. Each repeat of the bridge washed over me like wave after wave, and I began to contemplate the lyrics deeply and personally. Immediately, God’s Presence very tangibly filled and rested throughout the room. Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander “Spirit, lead me where my trust is without borders I knew what was coming next… but I had no idea what was really coming next. I recognized the song immediately, and my expectation rose. Then as the pastor wrapped up his message, I heard the opening chord progression… and I knew it was coming.

The entire evening had been such a genuine experience in God’s Presence… There was no way I could have left disappointed. They had led us in an hour of praise and worship at the beginning of the session, all of which was exciting and authentic and powerful… but no “Oceans.” It was ok, though. Ever since the opening of the session earlier that night, when I saw that the “Oceans girl” (Taya Smith) was there, I had been hoping they would do that song.

#YOU TAKE ME DEEPER THAN MY FEET COULD EVER WANDER FREE#

A powerful, life-challenging message had just been delivered, and Hillsong Young & Free had just taken back the stage to lead us in a response of commitment and worship. So here I was, with 13,000 other people, at the end of an evening session. But even in the busyness of the days prior, I had an underlying suspicion that God was up to something… It was for the eight middle and high school students we were taking to the conference. The point of the trip wasn’t for me anyway. The whirlwind of the week left me little time to contemplate what might come out of the trip for me personally, spiritually speaking. We left our three kids with my parents, our dog with my cousin, and my church obligations with other team members who were willing to step in on short notice. Last-minute circumstances necessitated another leader for the trip, so my husband and I scrambled to pull together the logistics for me to go. I wasn’t even supposed to have been on this trip to this youth conference in Atlanta. I stood in the arena, surrounded by thousands of other people, with tears streaming down my face. As for God, his way is perfect: The Lord’s word is flawless

You take me deeper than my feet could ever wander